Let's Be Honest (Drinking for you)

Let's be honest.
Candid for a moment.
We all know how
This ends.
With a kitchen knife
And a 5th.
I've nothing left,
Can't try again;
Only hollow for so long
Before I find some misery
To swallow.
Only sober until
Everyone's gone
And I can drown in peace.
I loved you all,
I hope you know,
But all the bad words
Are in capitals
And that one's so damn small.
Maybe, if I were better
At playing my guitar
I'd get a wall too,
But I won't,
Just a toast to a ghost
At some shitty ghetto bar.
We all fade away,
Everything you capture escapes;
The moment,
The light
The fickle flame
And the sun
Creeping through venetian blinds;
Passed out in cold
Sweat and shame.
It all just fades away
Beneath the bottles
Lined up like fallen soldiers
You kill just to feel OK.
So drink to me, Elliot and Chris
Everyone who ever saw the truth
And was broken by it.
Because right now,
I'm drinking to you.
Right now,
I'm drinking for you.

Flint and Steel (The Ember)

Ochr and azure

The autumn sky

So godamn beautiful

As day fades to night,

I watch twilight rise.

While your smile

Begins to fade,

And the flicker,

The ember,

Of love that I

Kindled in your eyes.

I'm flint and steel,

A hard handed man

Worn from making sparks,

All the nights

Spent writhing in sweat,

Grinding me away in the dark.

Just don't look for fire

In my lips or heart,

I don't make flames

Or build fires

Only funeral pyres

For sad girls

With pretty eyes.

Because I only want

Women in love with their lies.

I only feel,

When I know I could rise

Above the broken

Way your hands make fists

When you seethe and despise

the way I see weakness in you.

I'm flint and steel, hard, solid

And painfully real.

Everything you want, fear, hate

And feel.